It's incredibly fitting for such a useless and misguided degree to finish with such a useless and misguided class.
This whole experience makes me wonder about the future of education and the value of college degrees. To be honest, if it wasn't because I'm from a shithole country and all my chances of ever leaving are tied to a college degree, I would have dropped out years ago.
What's the value of (virtual) classrooms and professors in the era of search engines? Supposedly guidance, mentorship, and a certain kind of overarching structure to the chaos of knowledge. Sadly, this is very far from the truth. I'm 100% certain I have never learned anything from a professor in all my years of college. I don't know if it's because I've always been much more of an independent learner, or because they've been too old, uncaring, unmotivated or generally shitty. Understandably so, academia has become such a shitshow the past couple of decades that I'm sure professors have no motivation whatsoever to do anything but act as underpaid moths chasing the lamp of research grants.
I'm not asking much, and I know shit won't change by me ranting and whining about it. It's just very sad realizing how they get you. I'm sure that having to deal with shitty, pseudo-technical opinions from stupid-ass, ignorant people is something everyone has to deal with. It just baffles me that the intersection between absolute retards and PhD-holders is so godddamn high. I'm not saying I'm smarter than them. I'm not saying I haven't made a shit-ton of mistakes and I'm aware I still got a lot to learn. The difference between me and them is that I'm the one who's paying them and the only one out of the two who accepts their ignorance. This disgusting, bureaucratic, powertrip-induced game is something I really don't want to be a part of.
The assumption that a semester is enough to have any semblance of a coherent understanding of any subject is incredibly baffling. If I wasn't such a nerd and learned a lot by myself, all I would know at this point, if anything, is how to make web apps in 3 different frameworks. This is nothing new, this kind of mass-produced education has never actually delivered any of the promises it has made. And it's something I know most people are aware of. It's incredibly common among the classmates I talk to to mention they're here only for the degree and/or their parents' expectations. As with pretty much anything these days, I'm sure there's no future worth believing in left on this clown world. I know that most people can attest to the fact that working towards a goal you don't believe in is one of the worst experiences possible.
I feel incredibly ashamed of being so whiny about having the opportunity to study in college. After all, I'm a first-generation college student. At another time, I'd be working doing manual labour. It's just that it's also incredibly sad that after all the dust has settled, the illusion of education so easily crumbles under its own weight. After all the bells and whistles have stopped making any sounds, all that's left is merely an abusive, suicide-enabling, cash-grabbing, and corrupt institution stuck in the 1940s.
A college education is a waste of time. I'm sure no remarkable person has arisen from college education. My computer science degree is the most useless thing I've done in my life. I'm not glad it's almost over, the future looks as dire as the present, what's left for me? making web pages until the end of my life? I'm just relieved knowing that in three years I'll either become a monk or kill myself.
Settling in is the sign of a dying man, comfort in exchange for the promised land